Flawed

Another year bites the dust. Some more unique and divergent thoughts pass without so much as materialization. Its not that i expect some transcendental revelation on a random day, however i do want to believe that every day should serve a motive and shouldn't be just a supplement of 24 hours to endless purposelessness. After all isn't it purpose that everyone craves for?
All this makes me wonder; Are we actually meant to serve a purpose or is purposelessness itself our purpose!

This post was not supposed to be about perpetually unanswerable questions and the fact that it comes up shows the paramount confusion in the tiny brain of mine.
Actually, I wanted to make this post about the past year. About what I have learnt, fondly remembered, shunned.

I think the only thing I learnt this year is how flawed everything is. By flawed, I mean surpassing the societal definition of 'Perfect'. And even though we are in constant search of perfection, we love everything BECAUSE it is flawed. Flaws subdue our ego constantly by reminding us of our limitations, however, giving us solace in the fact that everyone is, in fact, JUST HUMAN. It gives us the biggest freedom, as Gandhi put it, the freedom to err. It liberates us. This gives me constant hope :)

This year I missed my sis a lot. Even though she left only in august and we talk constantly, I miss her presence/constant support/torture/always being there for me... (*to Kamya* When you are back in may, we are going to P-A-R-T-Y!!! Come back soon :P)

As for shunned, I gave up any concept of an extra corporeal deity. Not due to lack of judgement but for lack of unanimity, singularity in idea and consistency in the scriptures that define it. I however still remain open to the idea...

It has been a great year...

Happy New Year 2010...

p.s. This is most probably the last post for this year unless something of a mammoth nature comes up :)...L8R...
p.p.s Don't mind the grammatical errors or the inconsistency in ideas. I am, admittedly, more of a thinker than a writer :P

10 by 30

Bored by not studying all day, I wanted to do something I hadn't done but desired to do since a long time. I picked up a chair and some food and sat up on the roof.
It may sound lame, but it was different from just roaming around with your buddies and time really does slow down. Even with an overwhelming sunset at a distance, you can't but think about yourself and life in general. Random ponderings metamorphose into something more tangible.
My third semester examinations are beginning tomorrow. And this may sound cliched but it DOES seem like yesterday when I remember the first day at engineering and it seems just one day before that that I gave my standard 12 board exams.
This seems like an unexpected realization (to me at least), but life is going fast....a tad bit too fast. And the worst part is, most of it is inconspicuous and rarely noteworthy.
Gazing up at the resplendent colors of the cloud formations, the only thing I could think about was the futility of life if not for goals. Revelation....I decided to write down a list of 10 things I wanted to do by the time I turn 30 (again may sound cliched, but what the heck...i'm doing it anyway).
Why 30...well the average lifespan is about 60 years. And a half-life check would be a good yardstick of the attainment.

These are not in order of preference or chronology but just as they come to me...

1) Build a catamaran
2) Buy a penthouse
3) Live for 6 months in New York
4) Visit 5 continents
5) Touch all the 7 wonders of the world
6) Stay throughout the 45 days of the brazil carnival
7) Watch one coldplay concert, live
8) Spend $20,000 in vegas
9) Drive 1000 kms and back in one trip
10) Own a convertible

All these are neither sensible nor in any sense fathomable at this juncture in my life. But all are possible.
On a closing note, even if I DO accomplish the whole list, I want the journey of accomplishment to be much more memorable than the destinations.

To Hope....Cheers

p.s. If u comment, try to add your 10 by 30 list too :D